The journey out & the journey in. Become like the still mirror- the skin reflecting and infinite world within and without.
I told myself I wasn't going to speak this class. Just take it all in. But the parhsa was so bloody- so visceral. Not overtly so - but the spaces in between. A teaching of the two Torah's is called to mind- one which speaks of the written words and the other referring to the space in between.
War, circumcision, ritual sacrificial, birth all - rivers and rivers of blood streaming throughout the pages - not only the life blood of our people but of Islam contained - birthed from the spaces in between. And i couldn't hold myself back I had to let it be known what a bloody bloody parhsa this was.
The second time I spoke was asking about Sarai ,the priestess, the mystery school feeling in myself a truth that most of ritual wisdom was carried in these practices of Women's occult rites - and yet that can only be part of the story- as the feminine is risen into the new world the masculine must come to first the container must be set but like Reb Sarah said in the first class- time of the God and the Goddess returns and the journey for each was necessary.
To balance...the external - feeling too much energy to flow out one night and the next day I had felt drained. Somehow now, being able to step back- just enough and through writing- to see that both these experiences, of exhaling and inhaling are parts of the same whole me that which puts out and feels energized, that which is to outside herself and feels drained and learning to walk with more grace holding the two.
Frank Cook, a teacher and pioneer now in the other side shared once how when people speak it's not so much that he is listening to their words but to their heart. I am learning to do this better and better. I will continue to do listen to the words between the spaces for underneath the things that people say. This where we are all pregnant with divine truth and awareness. Exciting. Now to become conscious of that together & hold it collectively - well me thinks that our real work together may be just starting .
In divine grace and love
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